Our giving is to be done in “secret” (5643a). This is a principle that should cut to the heart because it is the antithesis of pride. Think of Jesus proclaiming the Pharisees hypocrites for the way in which they put money in the box at the temple and stood on street corners and prayed for the masses. His point was that they got their reward now. They would not be getting one later.
(Matthew 6:1 KJV) Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.It is more than a matter of reward. It is a matter of character, a matter of attitude. One of the repeated lesson we need to learn is that the “why” is as important as the “what”.
So? Take a break. Let your mind wander over your day, your week. See it any attitude issues jump out at you. That could be the Holy Spirit rewarding you for your desire to grow. See what He can help you do about it.